A warning for workaholics, overwork can and will kill you.
The owner of this blog is now dead, read today's new paper
Her last blog entry:
http://pinkmayflower.multiply.com/journal/item/140
I never know my limits til now...
Getting a job was never ever easy and having something good sure
have a sacrifice for something else. Coming a long line of
different jobs and doing different things have got me realise just
1 thing - I could never stay too long in a job now. The longest
would be in LTA for 7.5 yrs, that was my 1st job as a clerical
officer. After that, it was all sorts of different jobs in
different industry facing all sorts of difficulties. I came to HP
started as an Admin Executive in Sep last year & changing to a
Partner Support Manager in Mar just this year.
Just after getting this recent position, I was thrilled to finally
have the chance to "fly high" in a Fortune 500 MNC. It's ok for me
to wake at 3.30am to start work @ 4.30am everyday in the morning.
But never did I realise what kind of stuff were coming towards
me... What I face everyday as a partner support manager is having
more than 100 emails per day (I'm not joking, they're no good
ones), partners from New Zealand practically "screaming" to be
served first, getting their orders delivered ASAP, wanting
everything, complaining of everything. Month end was the most
"exciting" part, you get to go on concalls almost everyday, prepare
backlog reports for each concall session which consists of 500 over
orders remaining undelivered, investigating item by item. That's
just the qty. What abt the amount in $$? Millions of NZ dollars
involved. I've got 6 large partners and these are what I have to
handle. Besides, I've got to work at home during non-working hours
including weekends, just doing my best to clear my work. Did I
mention my team is really short-handed? Only 3 of us managers
handling the whole of NZ. All for the sake of a salary just enough
to keep myself alive for a month. I'm not earning like the other
managers are cos I'm only a contract staff.
Taking over the duties of a colleague who just left on Thu made me
realise that she was indeed a supergirl. The amount of workload she
handled was a complete hell. I cannot imagine how she could handle
all these for 1 year. She was so bloody happy to be able to quit
this job. All her stress has been relieved & put on me. Well,
great huh! My colleagues including me, dislike my boss. By the way,
he just gave me more work to do, on top of other things! I don't
know how to voice out to him that I'm so stressed up right
now.
I've got myself sick these few days. Had diarrhea last Thu, hurt my
knee and was limping badly since last Sunday, had breathlessness
since Wed & fainted after work on that day at my office lift
lobby, knocked my head against the wall when I fainted, collapsed
again last night at home. Now my chest feels really tight &
breathing is really tough. Getting up & walk, I just feel like
I'm carrying a heavy baggage of few hundred kilos & I'll start
to feel really weak & dizzy. Doc just said I'm really stressed
out. sigh..... what should I do? Quit? or continue this ultra-super
stressful job? I've got a contract of 6 mths to fulfill... 3 months
to commit. If I quit now, I've got to pay back 1 mth's salary. Not
worth it. If i quit after May, it won't be so bad. But I don't know
if my health can tolerate til then. My mom's really worried & I
can't do much to get less worried. Cos my focus was to earn lots of
$. I really thought I was able to do everything, that I can be
supergirl as well, but my health is worsening at a fast rate.
Vitamin M(oney) isn't gonna cure my health. Just yesterday, I
received an email from my job agency saying that a contract staff
who's working in HP as well, passed away from heart attack, leaving
his wife & kids... deja vu? coincidental? a warning sign? I
dunno. I don't wanna end up dead for the sake of dough. The moral
of the story is don't ever fall in love with your company or your
job.
Tags: dear diary
